Manic Monday... Did I just say Manic Monday? My golly.

It's Monday and I'm at work. Physically for today. I drive to Boca on Mondays and Tuesdays. Last week, I was sick and ended up staying home the whole week (Yes in my jammies). At first, it was awesome. I would wake up 10 minutes before I had to log on and then voila! I'm at work. No need to change, I could make breakfast while everything was loading, it was pretty cool. I couldn't say I felt the same by Wednesday. The reason being... I sit at home in the dark. It's really all rather creepy, but I don't like letting other people know I'm home. I know I'm weird. Let me try and explain the set-up, if you can imagine it:

First, I close all the blinds. All of them, the ones in the kitchen, the bedroom and the living room. I don't like it when people can look into my house. The other day when I was at home, I opened the blinds a tiny crack and there were people walking around in the back. I saw them, jumped up and quickly closed the blinds. Of course, peering out a little to see if they saw me. I'm paranoid I guess.

Second, I turn the AC to 75 or 76, we usually have the AC on 70. I have this weird notion in my head, that if I just sit completley still throughout the day, I wont use all of the cold air, and since there is only one of me it kinda makes sense? Mark hates it. One of the first things he always asks me when he comes home is, "Why is it so hot in here?" and I always reply with the same answer, "Because I turned the air down." He asks me everytime. I guess because he hates the hot weather, but if I'm in my jammies and I'm sitting in the same spot for 8 hours, it doesn't bother me.

Third, I turn all the lights off. I guess I do this because, I don't want anyone to know I'm home and also because of the electricity bill. I figure the less I use, the less our electricity bill will be. Of course, this enhances the creep factor, but times are tough people and again adding to the fact that if the lights are off, no one is home....

So anyway, I'm sitting at the computer desk for 8 hours and I can't really watch tv or listen to music through the speakers, because if my boss or someone intercoms me, they can hear what I'm doing. So, I have to do everything on the sly. So, I'll have one earphone in and one out so I can still pick up calls.

I mean working from home is cool, but because I'm there all day and then there all night, the walls start to close in on you. You realize that you were wearing possibly the same shirt you wore yesterday and you looked at all the same websites. Even though I'm working from home and have the ability to do whatever I want, I still try to have some integrity and actually work. I mean I may have some music on in the background or a reading something, but I don't want to take advantage you know? So anyway, after a while sitting at home all by your lonesome can be... well to be redundant lonely. Then sometimes I wish I was in Boca with all the other people. But then when I'm in Boca... like today. I wish I was home. The simple reason being it's also lonely here.

Giselle moved to Taiwan and she was the only other young person here. Everyone else is above the age of 40 and their English is for lack of a better word almost non existant. It's hard to have a conversation with someone when they don't understand you and you don't understand them. It ends up being a conversation where you're just smiling and nodding your head and saying, "Yes!" "Really?" "Cool!". It's very tiring. So, I end up just sitting here and doing what I would at home, except not in my jammies.

I'm really not complaining. I'm 100% thankful for this job, I truly am. I just start to think a lot, when my brain is only working 5%.